Home Stretch

Well, folks, I have hit the 34 week mark. Our baby boy will be "full term" in 3 weeks and my due date is 6 weeks away!

I am definitely feeling ready to be done being pregnant and can't wait to meet our little boy! I am, however, having anxiety over the "what ifs." What if we didn't get something that we absolutely NEED on day one? What if he doesn't like the stuff we do have and we have to get other things? What if he comes early? What if I go into labor and no one is available to take care of the dogs and cat? What if I go into labor and we are having a snow storm?

This may be part of the reason for my lack of sleep as of late. This past week I started sleeping in our guest room. It is very weird to be sleeping alone, but the extra space and pillows, and lack of animals is helping me get more sleep. I was having issues with our bed-sharing Puggle hogging the covers and the cat jumping on me all night long. I still feel like I could fall asleep at any moment during the day, but I'd be even more tired without the sleep I'm getting at night.

I think that the baby may have "dropped" today. I have really felt okay and been moving around pretty well (except for occasionally needing assistance with shoe tying, haha), but starting this morning, it has become a whole new ballgame. I feel so much pressure and I am so much more uncomfortable. We have an appointment on Thursday to check on the baby's growth, etc. so I should know more then. Makes me nervous! Did anyone else drop early and was it okay for the remainder of your pregnancy? I am okay with the idea of our little guy arriving a few weeks early if he is healthy and ready to meet us, but not this early!

Reality Check!

While I've been busy whining about how I still have a long way to go, blah, blah, blah, it didn't dawn on me until today how soon our little guy will be here!!

This weekend, I will be at 32 weeks. If our baby is born at 37 weeks, which is early, but in the beginning of the "normal delivery" window, and around when my brother and I were both born, our baby will be making his appearance in just over 5 weeks! That is 37 days!! If he is born on my due date, December 11, that is still only 8 weeks away.

So much still to do!! We have three classes scheduled at the hospital in the next two weeks, so those will help me make a final check list of must-dos and must-haves. Yikes!

Low Motivation Momma

In the early stages of being pregnant, I was easily distracted at work because I was excited and had a million questions that would pop up all day long. In a typical day, I spent as much time looking things up as I did working. During the second trimester, it got a little better and it was easier to focus on work and stay motivated. The last few weeks have reverted back to easy distraction and researching with an extra dose of low motivation. When I have enough work to keep me busy, I can manage to stay focused and get it done, but during lulls, there is no hope.

I am currently in such a lull, but most days have involved bouts of nothing to do then rushed, frantic work intermittently interrupting the nothing. I never enjoy being bored at work, but my hormones are making this extra challenging. The hormones aren't so bad during slow times (except when I think that it is a good idea to read stories online and end up crying), but when I am being thrown these crazy rushed, high stress and high pressure projects, I find myself more anxious than usual and have the added worry of breaking into tears. The other day, I was exchanging emails with my boss. Usually, I would just walk into his office to discuss it, but I was intentionally not doing so, as I would normally do, because I was sure I would start balling. I do not imagine that this would go over well.

During a typical day, I find myself daydreaming a lot  and going over baby check-lists in my head or looking up baby-related articles and random questions that come up as I'm day dreaming or making check-lists. I'd like to think this is just a little phase, but I'm guessing this will be how this final phase is going to go. Definitely won't be setting any records with my billable hours for the year. It's times like these that I am so thankful that my job is not dependant on those billables!

Two More Months?!

Today marks two months from my due date. That seems like no time at all really, but a lot can happen in two months. I was much smaller, as was the baby two months ago. So much has happened in two months and the baby has grown so much. At our appointment last week, our doctor estimated that the little guy is 3lbs 14oz.

This week, week 31, I am beginning to realize how much space he is taking up, and feeling the pressure, especially on my lungs. This morning was probably the worst I have felt my entire pregnancy. I got to my desk at work and was hit with a combination of shortness of breath, feeling like I could fall asleep in an instant, and extremely hot (it felt like my office was 100 degrees instead of its actual temperate of 71). I sat here and wondered, how on earth am I going to so this for two more months, with the baby growing even more every day?! After some ice water and sitting here for a while, I am feeling more like myself, but have had a little freak out moment!

My handy app keeps helping me along- I'm 78.2% through my pregnancy today, 21.8% remaining. Just 61 days until my due date!