Friday, December 23, 2011

The Journey in Photographs

My prior posts have been from my office computer, so I didn't have access to my photo library. Since I am now home with our sweet baby, I thought it would be fun to post some pictures from the start of my pregnancy to the baby's birth.

Side Note: I have chosen not to include our son's name on this blog, as it is public, so please refrain from using his name in comments as well. I will create a nickname that I'll use on here once I come up with it!


Pregnant!!

4 weeks


21 weeks

26 weeks

26 weeks

32 weeks

36 weeks

39 weeks- night before being induced

In the hospital

Meeting baby for the first time!

Baby Boy!

Our baby boy was born December 6, 2011 at 4:17pm. He was 8lbs. 2oz. and 20 inches long.

These pictures are from the hospital on December 7, 2011.








Monday, November 28, 2011

Giving Thanks

(I started this last week, but failed to finish it by Thursday)

Happy Thanksgiving!

This year I have so much to be thankful for-my heart could burst from all of the gratitude!

I am thankful for my incredible family. My husband is amazing beyond words and has shown me nothing but love, support, and strength even when I am being a pregnant psycho. My parents and brother have been so supportive and excited for us. I can't wait for them to meet their grandson/nephew!!

I am thankful for the healthy baby that is growing and growing inside of me. I am thankful that we have made it past 37 weeks with no problems and that he has been so healthy, and that he has been easy on me and that this pregnancy has been pretty painless.

I am thankful for our friends. We have such wonderful friends supporting us. This is especially valuable now as we make this transition in our lives and start a new chapter. It has become so clear how great some of our friends truly are. I appreciate all of you!
I am thankful for our "fur babies."  We have three sweet, loving dogs and one sweet, loving cat that cheer me up and make me laugh all the time. I can't imagine how quiet and boring our house would be without these four creatures living in it. To have such unconditional love on a daily basis is so heartwarming.

I am thankful for the generosity of others. We have been so lucky to receive such thoughtful and generous gifts from so many people this year. We have also received wonderful advice, stories and hints that have helped to ease our worries and prepare us for what is yet to come. This has made our experience of getting ready for baby so much easier.

I am thankful for our jobs. In a terrible economy, Jay and I have jobs that (usually) we enjoy. I cannot stress enough how thankful I am for this. Also, we work for companies that allow us to actually spend time together.

I am thankful for YOU! Thanks for reading my rants and ramblings. :)

Monday, November 21, 2011

Still Pregnant!

Today I am 37 weeks and 1 day pregnant. Our baby boy is now considered "full term" and I am within the delivery window (37-42 weeks). My app says that I am now 92.9% through my pregnancy. My due date is 20 days away!!!

My mom has decided that the baby is going to be born this Friday (because that is what is convenient for her) and my husband has decided that he will be born on either December 1st or 2nd (because that is what is convenient for him). I have kindly asked our baby to just come before December 11th. No particular day is convenient for me- I just don't want to be over-due! I'm ready to not be pregnant any more!!!

Feel free to add your own predictions in the comments to this post and we'll see if anyone guesses the baby's birthday correctly!

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Driving Me Crazy!

I would like some sort of sticker or sign for my car that reads something along the lines of, "I am very pregnant. BACK OFF!"

I can be a little bit of an angry driver anyway. I don't appreciate people who do not use their blinkers, cut me off, or have no patience. Since becoming pregnant, however, my anger level has gone up quite a bit. It is no longer just me that these idiots are possibly endangering or being aggressive toward. Moreover, I am not willing to take certain risks with my baby in the car with me. For example, a couple days ago, I was at the right turn that I make out of my neighborhood onto a busy main street. I have to immediately cross three lanes to get into the far left lane to then hop on the freeway. There was pretty steady traffic coming, so I just waited until I had the green light rather than flooring it to try to save two minutes and get onto the road. The man behind me did not appreciate this very much. He was waving, yelling and making hand gestures. I can understand if there were blatant openings where I could have easily made it, but this was not the case. I would have had to gun it. Additionally, I was in my 15 year old Jeep at the time, and she does not have quite the get up and go she once did. I am just not willing to take a chance like that now. I really wanted to tell the impatient idiot behind me to just control himself. Once I did turn right and he pulled up next to me, I did not look at him. I did, however, rub my belly trying to give him the message of, "it is not worth it, jerk." I hope he felt dumb, but he probably didn't even notice. Some people are just way too important to wait at a light for an extra couple of minutes.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Update

Had another ultrasound today and Baby Boy is 5lbs 10ounces. I'm at 34 weeks and 4 days, 86.4% through my pregnancy. Baby is due in 38 days, and will be full term in just 17 days!!!

He has definitely dropped, which a good sign because it means that things are progressing normally, so hopefully they will continue to do so.

I am so nervous and excited all at the same time!

Monday, October 31, 2011

Home Stretch

Well, folks, I have hit the 34 week mark. Our baby boy will be "full term" in 3 weeks and my due date is 6 weeks away!

I am definitely feeling ready to be done being pregnant and can't wait to meet our little boy! I am, however, having anxiety over the "what ifs." What if we didn't get something that we absolutely NEED on day one? What if he doesn't like the stuff we do have and we have to get other things? What if he comes early? What if I go into labor and no one is available to take care of the dogs and cat? What if I go into labor and we are having a snow storm?

This may be part of the reason for my lack of sleep as of late. This past week I started sleeping in our guest room. It is very weird to be sleeping alone, but the extra space and pillows, and lack of animals is helping me get more sleep. I was having issues with our bed-sharing Puggle hogging the covers and the cat jumping on me all night long. I still feel like I could fall asleep at any moment during the day, but I'd be even more tired without the sleep I'm getting at night.

I think that the baby may have "dropped" today. I have really felt okay and been moving around pretty well (except for occasionally needing assistance with shoe tying, haha), but starting this morning, it has become a whole new ballgame. I feel so much pressure and I am so much more uncomfortable. We have an appointment on Thursday to check on the baby's growth, etc. so I should know more then. Makes me nervous! Did anyone else drop early and was it okay for the remainder of your pregnancy? I am okay with the idea of our little guy arriving a few weeks early if he is healthy and ready to meet us, but not this early!

Friday, October 14, 2011

Reality Check!

While I've been busy whining about how I still have a long way to go, blah, blah, blah, it didn't dawn on me until today how soon our little guy will be here!!

This weekend, I will be at 32 weeks. If our baby is born at 37 weeks, which is early, but in the beginning of the "normal delivery" window, and around when my brother and I were both born, our baby will be making his appearance in just over 5 weeks! That is 37 days!! If he is born on my due date, December 11, that is still only 8 weeks away.

So much still to do!! We have three classes scheduled at the hospital in the next two weeks, so those will help me make a final check list of must-dos and must-haves. Yikes!

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Low Motivation Momma

In the early stages of being pregnant, I was easily distracted at work because I was excited and had a million questions that would pop up all day long. In a typical day, I spent as much time looking things up as I did working. During the second trimester, it got a little better and it was easier to focus on work and stay motivated. The last few weeks have reverted back to easy distraction and researching with an extra dose of low motivation. When I have enough work to keep me busy, I can manage to stay focused and get it done, but during lulls, there is no hope.

I am currently in such a lull, but most days have involved bouts of nothing to do then rushed, frantic work intermittently interrupting the nothing. I never enjoy being bored at work, but my hormones are making this extra challenging. The hormones aren't so bad during slow times (except when I think that it is a good idea to read stories online and end up crying), but when I am being thrown these crazy rushed, high stress and high pressure projects, I find myself more anxious than usual and have the added worry of breaking into tears. The other day, I was exchanging emails with my boss. Usually, I would just walk into his office to discuss it, but I was intentionally not doing so, as I would normally do, because I was sure I would start balling. I do not imagine that this would go over well.

During a typical day, I find myself daydreaming a lot  and going over baby check-lists in my head or looking up baby-related articles and random questions that come up as I'm day dreaming or making check-lists. I'd like to think this is just a little phase, but I'm guessing this will be how this final phase is going to go. Definitely won't be setting any records with my billable hours for the year. It's times like these that I am so thankful that my job is not dependant on those billables!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Two More Months?!

Today marks two months from my due date. That seems like no time at all really, but a lot can happen in two months. I was much smaller, as was the baby two months ago. So much has happened in two months and the baby has grown so much. At our appointment last week, our doctor estimated that the little guy is 3lbs 14oz.

This week, week 31, I am beginning to realize how much space he is taking up, and feeling the pressure, especially on my lungs. This morning was probably the worst I have felt my entire pregnancy. I got to my desk at work and was hit with a combination of shortness of breath, feeling like I could fall asleep in an instant, and extremely hot (it felt like my office was 100 degrees instead of its actual temperate of 71). I sat here and wondered, how on earth am I going to so this for two more months, with the baby growing even more every day?! After some ice water and sitting here for a while, I am feeling more like myself, but have had a little freak out moment!

My handy app keeps helping me along- I'm 78.2% through my pregnancy today, 21.8% remaining. Just 61 days until my due date!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

After Our Childbirth Class...

I have WAY more questions than I did going into it. It is good, because it made us realize what we don't know and the things that we need to think about, but my brain is jam-packed with as many new questions as there is new knowledge! I am so glad that we took the class. There are also infant safety, infant care, and breastfeeding classes that I think we will take too, especially after this class.

My big question for the audience: did you get an epidural? If so, did it negatively impact breastfeeding and your child's ability to latch? Also, did you notice any other adverse effects on your baby? My doctor says that nothing actually gets to the baby, but the class talked about the fact that babies are often "sluggish" after birth when mom had an epidural, and have a harder time latching and there can be breastfeeding challenges. I'm also afraid of other long term effects on the baby that maybe haven't been studied. I have NO desire to prove anything to anyone by having un-medicated labor, but now I'm freaked out about the risks. My doctor said that the advantage to epidurals is that it can help speed up delivery because anxiety and fear can slwo delivery when the mom is in so much pain, and that it makes it a more pleasant experience because mom is present and aware, but not in as much pain. I definitely don't want the intravenous narcotics, as I don't like the idea of the drugs going directly to the baby, the risks of respiratory depression, and the fact that they give the baby a drug to counter-act the narcotics immediately after birth. Just seems like too many drugs going to my baby very early in his little life.

Also, did anyone use a doula? I have emailed one and am considering meeting with her, but I don't know anyone that has used them. The doula websites all tout these great statistical advantages to using a doula, but these are listed on pro-doula websites, so I don't trust the accuracy or objectivity of the statistics and information.

We also got to do a tour of the labor and delivery rooms, mom and baby rooms, and saw the nursery. I am so glad that we are going to be at such a great hospital. The staff seems great, everything really appears to have been designed well and with the families' best interests in mind, and I like that it is pretty new and really clean. It was helpful to learn what to do when I go into labor, such as what hours the main entrance is open, when we'll need to go to emergency, and what to do if no one is at the registration desk. These are all good things to know, and better to know in advance when we aren't panicking.

Watching the videos in class of moms giving birth wasn't as horrifying as I was preparing myself for, and it was so amazing to see them all meeting their new babies. It made me so excited to meet our little guy!!!

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Little Kicker

Short video of the kicking today. Of course as soon as I stop recording he really puts some effort into it, but he did move some for this video...


I realize that this may not be exciting to any of you who have experienced this, but it is so crazy for me. It is so strange to have this part of my body that is completely out of my control. My baby's movements are completely his own and I have no control over them (other than changing positions, music, etc., but it's really all up to him). Crazy!

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Graduation

If you are a male, not comfortable with the words used to describe female anatomy, or medical terms, I recommend that you DO NOT READ THIS POST! If you decide to anyway, don't say I didn't warn you...

I will try to not go into too much detail here, but, again, this may be TMI. I apologize in advance.

First, some background. Around four and a half years ago, I had the joy of learning that I was reproductively challenged. I had a uterine septum (basically a wall separating the left and right sides of my uterus) and two cervixes (cervices?). This was not exactly great news, but it was "repairable" via surgery, and if "repaired" I was told that I would have a good chance of becoming pregnant in the future. The real blessing here was that I found this out well before thinking about babies, rather than miscarrying or not being able to get pregnant and then finding out about this anatomical anomaly. I was lucky to find a great surgeon and, two surgeries later, I was told I should be good to go whenever I decided it was time for babies. While I had been given the go ahead, I have still been very nervous every since that I would have major problems. Two years ago I started getting ovarian cysts, one of which was 9 cm (3.5 inches!) across and was definitely the most painful experience that I have ever had. That didn't add an additional hurdle to getting pregnant, but I was warned that if I had one when I got pregnant, it could be risky. So, just another little thing to worry about.

When we started "trying" I had my hopes very low, and expected that we would not have an easy time of it given my history. I was partially right, in that I did not get pregnant the first time we tried, nor many times after that. Thankfully, however, I, obviously, did get pregnant and everything has been great.

Because of my cervixes, however, I have had to visit the neonatologist every two weeks for cervical checks to make sure that both cervixes are "competent." My surgeon had initially said that he thought that one was incompetent, so it was important to keep a close eye on them to make sure they were doing their job and keeping the baby safe. I haven't particularly minded the appointments, but they have added extra time away from work, the fun of transvaginal ultrasounds every two weeks, and neonatologist appointments are not cheap (but they have helped me meet my $5,000 deductible MUCH faster). The good news is that every time that I have gone in, everything has been fine.

Today, at 28 weeks and 3 days pregnant, I was told that I have "graduated" and don't need to go in for cervical checks anymore! Apparently, because I have made it this far without any problems, my doctors are confident that my cervixes are capable of doing their job, and will continue to do so for the remainder of my pregnancy. Though I kind of liked the bi-weekly reminder that everything is okay, it is such a relief to know that my body is doing what it is supposed to, and, hopefully, I don't need to worry anymore.

Time for the final haul! 11 weeks and 4 days until my due date!

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Another Uncomfortable Conversation Out of the Way

As I have stated, maybe multiple times, on this blog, I have been facing semi-uncharted territory when it comes to maternity leave at my office. The last and only person to take maternity leave was over twelve years ago, she is a secretary, and there were only three people in the office back then. As we have considered and discussed my leave, child care, etc. it has been surrounded by "ifs" relating to how long I'll have of. When I first told my boss that I was pregnant, I discussed the possibility of part-time and he said something along the lines of "we will make whatever work."I have wondered, however, if that would still be true now that he has had time to think about it, and the reality of me being gone for weeks is getting closer.

Working in a small office can have its advantages and disadvantages when it comes to leave. When you are pregnant everyone says, "Oh! You are protected by FMLA! They have to give you 12 weeks. They can't fire you for being out sick or at doctor appointments." The books also say similar things without mentioning the caveats.  FMLA does NOT apply to everyone. It only applies to businesses with a certain number of employees (something like 20 or 25 and above) and public/government agencies. My firm has fewer than 20 employees and is not a government agency. Therefore, I can be fired for missing too much work, and my firm has no minimum amount of leave that it has to offer. I also do not have short-term disability coverage which, at many companies, results in paid leave. Any payment I receive while out on leave will be from my accrued vacation and sick time, which thankfully I do have remaining.

In approaching this conversation with my boss, I have been very nervous. Our "handbook" says that an employee can take up to eight weeks off. My secretary has no recollection of how long she took, but she was able to bring her babies into work with her back then because it was such a small office, so it was a totally different arrangement. My office is directly behind reception and across the hall from our conference room. I cannot imagine that a screaming baby would go over very well.

Today I had the talk. I asked my boss if he had an idea of how long he was comfortable with me taking, or if he had given it any thought, but he said no, only that he knew the handbook says eight weeks. I pointed out that if we were under FMLA, I would be entitled to twelve, and that I was hoping for that. He pondered it, but ultimately said, "okay, that works." I then brought up part-time. Ideally, I was hoping for eight weeks of part-time, coming in full days three days a week, staying home two. I could tell he wasn't thrilled about the part-time prospect, and when I mentioned three days a week, he instead proposed half days so that I would be in here each day in case an emergency came up. I told him childcare could be difficult on that schedule, as our daycare allows for drop-in days, but you have to pay for a full day, so really we'd be paying for full-time childcare when the baby would only be there part-time and I would only be bringing in half of my usual income. Doesn't quite equate. He said we can discuss if we aren't able to figure out childcare. I am hoping that we can find a family that does childcare from their home and would be okay with part-time, or a college student that has afternoon/evening class and is looking for a part-time job in the mornings. The real issue will be making sure we have coverage if I get stuck at work past my set "clock-out" time. At least with an in-home daycare, they could probably keep him and I can just pay for the extra time, or a nanny could bring the baby to my office if she needed to be somewhere. We settled on six weeks of part-time, so hopefully we can find childcare for those six weeks!

I am relieved to now know how much time I will have and am grateful that my boss is so understanding and was willing to discuss it with me and consider my opinion. He could have easily told me that the policy is eight weeks, end of story. I am looking forward to having twelve weeks with my little guy and six weeks to transition into being a working mom.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Last Post from the Second Trimester...

I cannot believe that this weekend I will be in my third trimester. Sometimes it feels like I have been pregnant FOREVER, but now I think back to when my third trimester just seemed sooooo far away. Now, here I am, just a few days away.

We had another baby "growth check" yesterday. Baby is still doing great! He is ahead on growth by about a week and a half now. The ultrasound tech said it's thanks to his big head and belly. When she was measuring his head, she said, "well, he does not have a dainty head." Once again, taking after dad. At least he'll have lots of room for all of the smarts that I'm sure he's also inherited from his dad. Everything else looked good and just as it should. He was awake and jumping around during our appointment, which was funny to watch on the monitor. He had his eyes open, so we got one picture of him that looks like he's staring right at us.

We also went and checked out the montessori yesterday. It was a really positive experience and I liked it. It was very clean, quiet and calm. The infant rooms seemed clean and safe for the babies to explore, and all of the babies there seemed happy and calm. Not too much screaming going on, which was good. They use a "baby buggy" that has four seats that they put the babies in for walks around the center and outside when it's nice. It was pretty cute to see these groups of babies riding around in the buggy. I could also go over for nursing or just random visits anytime, so that is a big plus. We will probably look at another place nearby just to be sure, but I think we found a winner. Now, just need to figure out what to do while I'm part-time and we'll be all set!

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Worries of a Child Care Novice...

Tomorrow is our official tour of the montessori we plan to use when I go back to work full-time. I am nervous! I don't know if I know what to look for or look out for. This place has really good reviews online, and is right across from my office, so I know that I'll be able to stop in and check on him any time if I'm feeling worried or something, but it is such a big deal! They will be guarding the life and well-being of our child! I have heard that montessories are better than daycare, but am not really sure what the difference is. Maybe they will tell us tomorrow. Any tips out there on what to look for and ask about?

I am also trying to figure out what to do and how to plan the weeks before we start at the montessori. I am hoping to go back to work part-time for a month or two if I can (yet to be set in stone and officially approved by the boss, but fingers crossed) and the montessori is full-time only. I want to ease back into working and still be able to have a few days home rather than just having a set date by which I need to have everything figured out. I am hoping to find someone to maybe nanny part-time, or try to find a neighbor or someone that could watch him from their home, but the nanny option looks to be maybe even more expensive than the montessori will be full-time, so I have no idea what to do. Has anyone used a "nanny share" and could you explain that to me? People have mentioned it and recommended it, but I have no clue what it means or how it actually works in practice...

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Pregnancy Symptom?

Or, am I just getting cranky in my old age?

It seems like I am so much more annoyed with things right now. For example, I am fairly used to people mis-spelling my name with a "z," but after a woman sent me three emails today addressed to "Elizabeth" I am about ready to scream. It's like my patience for inattention to detail has virtually disappeared.

So far I haven't snapped at anyone, but I have written several nasty notes that I promptly ripped up just to get it out.

Am I alone, or is this a pregnancy symptom that my books forgot to tell me about?

Thursday, August 25, 2011

The Nursery!

The nursery is done! Well, the painting and chair rail are done, and we have all of the furniture except for a glider/rocking chair. Jay is such a good sport. Usually I do a lot of the work with painting projects, but on this it was all him. He first had to move his clothes from the closet in the nursery to the closet in the guest room (cut his closet space by more than half), since I take up the entire closet in our room, which was a big and not very fun undertaking, I'm sure. Once that was done, we taped and he primed the entire room, as the walls were blue with really dark blue trim. I'd had the idea of a chair rail, which Jay wasn't too keen on, but he put a little faith in my idea, and painted the top half of the wall light blue and the bottom half green. We measured and cut the chair rail, he painted it, and we installed it this past weekend just in time for Jayme's visit to our house. Here are some pictures from my phone:

I am pretty proud of my idea, if I don't say so myself. I think it turned out really nice. You can't tell from the pictures, but the blue and green paint match 2 of the polka dot colors on the valance.

In a month or so, the windows will be replaced, so we don't have to worry about the baby freezing or burning from the 50 year old aluminum windows. I will post more pictures once we have it more decorated, etc.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

First...

I have had my first pregnancy comment from a stranger. I am getting used to people staring at my belly. Maybe they are thinking, "oh, she is pregnant," but have guessed wrong before so just stare. Last night, I was walking down the stairs at the gym heading to the locker room to change and a woman was walking up. As she was eye level with my belly, she says "Is there a baby in there?" and smiled. It was a good feeling to know that yes, it is obvious to complete strangers that this bump is for a baby and not from too many cheeseburgers!

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Excuse me while I vent...

I apologize in advance for the TMI-ness of this post...

For me, many of the pregnancy stereotypes or typical symptoms have skipped me, but there is one that has not- the need to pee CONSTANTLY. Add to this the necessity of drinking enough water all day long, and you can imagine how many times I leave my desk during the day.

The problem, however, is my office. There are nine women that work here full-time and two additional women that come in part-time. We have one women's bathroom. Not one bathroom with stalls, just one bathroom. There is also one bathroom for men, of which there are five. Prior to my pregnancy, this would sometimes be annoying, but never that big of a deal. Now, however, I am becoming increasingly annoyed.

My biggest annoyance this week- a co-worker that takes her breaks in the bathroom. I don't mean that she uses her breaks to go to the restroom. She will spend over twenty minutes in there at least twice, but usually three times a day. Now, she could be feeling ill and have troubles that I should be sympathetic to. However, I honestly think she just likes the quiet in there and sits in there reading magazines. I can understand that, but there is some consideration required in an office full of women, one of which being pregnant with an impatient bladder!

Because there is no possible way to discuss this with said co-worker, I am venting on here to at least get it off my chest!

I have now gone over and introduced myself as "the pregnant girl" to the receptionist in the office next door and have permission to use their bathroom when needed. With pregnancy comes the realization that some things are just more important than being embarrassed. It is a lot less embarrassing to go into another office to use a restroom than it would be to pee my pants at the office.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

The Latest

We had our bi-weekly appointment and our monthly growth check. Everything still looks really good and the baby's growth is right on track. He is one week ahead of schedule, which they say is completely normal. He weighs over a pound now! during the ultrasounds, he had is feet right up under my ribs and his head down by my hips, with his hand around or over his face the whole time. We got three new 3D pictures.

Still can't rotate, but he has his hand completely covering his face. He takes after his father already and hates having his photo taken!


Side view of his face.

He's trying to eat his hand.

Tomorrow is four months exactly from our due date. I cannot believe it is that soon already. Sometimes it feels like I have been pregnant FOREVER, but mostly, I am shocked by how fast the time is going by. He will be here before we know it! Makes me realize all of the things left to do. We registered for our childbirth class and I plan to also take a newborn care class in the next couple months. I'm so excited!

On Sunday at my parents' house, the neighbor came over with her granddaughter. We went to go say hi to the horse, and when he stretched out his head to sniff us, it scared the little one and she reached over to me with her arms all stretched out. I picked her up and she just clung to my neck. It was the sweetest thing and made me so excited to have my own little one to comfort and cuddle!

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Time for an Update

It's been a while since I've posted anything, so here goes a random post about how things are going now. I apologize in advance for the lack of organization and focus!

I am now 21 weeks and 2 days pregnant, and, according to my handy iPhone app, 53.2% through my pregnancy, and 61.9% through my second trimester. 131 days remain until my due date. Now that it is August, December is seeming so much closer than it once did.

Thankfully, I have been feeling great. I am probably really annoying to those of you that had terrible morning sickness, but I really have nothing to complain about- I have really enjoyed my pregnancy so far. I, of course, can get worn out and have days where I am grumpy and just feel bad, and the acne was a bonus I didn't expect, but I am FINALLY getting my skin back. I feel less and less like a teenage boy every day.  However, my acne issues have been replaced by the problem of the expanding butt and hips. I have always gained weight as a "pear," and apparently, being pregnant = my weight is just migrating there. Today, my secretary says to me, in an excited tone, "Oh! You're filling out!" To me, that means, "Woah! Look at how fat you are getting!" Now, I realize this is a little bit dramatic, but this is an entirely new experience. I had an image in my head of what I thought I would look like pregnant, but my body has a mind of its own! I thought I was prepared for the weight gain and changing body, but I am learning that it's easier said than done. I'm still right in the right range of weight gain according to my doctor, and am still working out regularly (though I had to stop running after my first doctor appointment), so I am not exactly upset or concerned, but it is strange. I have not ever been someone to have major weight fluctuations, so it's an adjustment to be sure.

On a related note, I am really starting to look pregnant. That is kind of fun. I don't have people asking when I'm due, or touching me (thankfully), but Jay says that he thinks it should be obvious to strangers. I'm not so sure, but it is definitely more apparent than it was a few weeks ago. I swear, the 18 week mark was a turning point. Up until then, I doubt that anyone thought anything other than that I had a little gut, but then 18 weeks hit and suddenly there is this belly!

Baby boy is still doing well. He really enjoyed the Rockies game last night. TONS of wiggling around and moving. I was trying to describe the feeling to Jay, but could only come up with "it feels like a fish is flopping around in there!" Such a strange feeling and sometimes it is so distracting. I cannot imagine what it will be like when he is bigger and exerting more force and kicking and punching me! We saw him in 3D at my appointment last week. I won't post it because he looks half alien- half burn victim, but it was cool to see the actual facial features instead of the skeletal image that shows up on the regular ultrasound. I was caught off guard because mid-ultrasound, the tech just switched it to 3D for fun, found his face, printed a few pictures, then switched it back. To be honest, it was slightly creepy seeing him like that, and I had no time to prepare to see it!

Work has been good, also. Thankfully it hasn't been crazy busy, so there hasn't been too much stress and my hours have been reasonable. I do get many more sincere "how are you"s during the day, which was pretty much non-existent before, and every once and a while, someone will stare at my belly for a few seconds then ask when my due date is. Those moments always make me a little but uncomfortable because I can't tell if they are wondering if I look too pregnant or not pregnant enough.  I should start messing with them and giving different dates each time.

I better stop rambling. This is a long post! Thanks so much to everyone that sent me feedback on registry items- I really appreciate it!

Monday, July 18, 2011

Baby Registry - Help Wanted

Yesterday, we took on a task that I have been fearing- we spent two hours at Babies 'R Us getting our registry started. I have looked at some lists online of must haves, don't bothers, and most popular, but we were vastly unprepared for this experience. Being in that store, with so many choices and products that are completely foreign to us, was very overwhelming. Thankfully, the employees at this store were extremely helpful and gave us good tips and comparisons between products. However, now that I am going through the registry that we created, I still have no idea if some of the things are even necessary or if there are any major items that we should be adding.

For those of you out there with kids or experience with these types of things, do you have any must haves or don't bothers for us to take into consideration? Any feedback would be very much appreciated by this overwhelmed mommy to be.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Drum Roll, Please...

It's a BOY!

We are so excited and are having fun looking at adorable nursery themes :) We have another appointment today to measure the little guy, so I'm really looking forward to that!

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

The Envelope

During our many long car trips in Ireland (more on the trip later) the main topic of discussion was, 'will we find out?' Ultimately, we decided to. An overview of some of the 'whys' is in Gender Wars. A big part of our decision is based on the fact that I have to go in every 2 weeks to one doctor for an ultrasound and then to another doctor about every 4 weeks, sometimes with ultrasounds. I feel like chances are that at some point during one of these appointments I will be able to tell, or a doctor or nurse will say he/she and that is not how we want to find out. The final factor for me really, is that I just want to know and be able to bond with he or she. The 'it' stuff just gets to me, and I am such a type-A personality, that I'm sure the planning aspect has something to do with it as well.

I had my 16 week appointment today and, along with 6 new pictures to add to the family photo album (including one cute zoomed in shot of a tiny foot and toes posted below), I also have a big envelope. Inside that envelope is the answer to whether it is a boy or girl. I'm not exactly sure when we will open it, but knowing how incredibly patient I am, probably soon. We will not, however, likely be sharing the gender with the whole world (i.e. Facebook). We may keep it our little secret for awhile, or start telling everyone. Time will tell, but don't be disappointed if I don't share right away! Everyone will know eventually one way or another.

Feel free to post gender guesses in the meantime to test your psychic abilities :)
Here are some new photos.

This is a good side view showing the head and belly. Quality isn't great since it is a picture of a picture, but you can make out the ear and face pretty well. (and I apologize, I still haven't figured out how to rotate images on here).







 
And here is the toes picture. Those blurry little dots are the toes.



Tuesday, June 14, 2011

New Travel Worries

In two days we leave for Ireland (YAY!). I am so excited to be away without my iPhone and seven hours ahead of Denver time. It feels good to email clients right now and say, "I will be out of the country and unreachable."

There are, however, a few new concerns added to my usual list of worries when traveling.

1) Attire. I have not "popped" and most of my regular clothes still fit. I know that this will not last forever. I have used my trusty Belly Band twice now (BTW- I want to kiss whoever invented that), but haven't had to make it an every day accessory. We are going to be gone a total of ten days. Under normal circumstances, I would never think, "gee, will that fit me in a week?" Now, I have to pack very thoughtfully. A lot can change in a week, especially now. For example, last week I wore the same skirt that I am wearing today. Last week it zipped all the way up, though I didn't hook it at the top. Today, I have the zipper down a full two inches so that I can breath. Each item that I have considered packing has to pass the following test: is it stretchy or can it be worn with the Belly Band? Also, shirts that are normally a staple for travel look gross now, as my belly is starting to just look like a fat bulge above my pants. Accordingly, each shirt must be tried on to make sure it fits and looks reasonably acceptable with pants. I tried to go shopping for some cute loose shirts this past weekend, but it was a complete failure. Perhaps I should start designing maternity clothes since the selection is not impressive or affordable. I might be wearing the same three tops the entire trip.

2) Flights. I am a pretty stationary flyer. I do not like to get up a lot. I usually hunker down in my seat and stay put. For a 6.5 hour overnight flight, I would probably be taking a sleep aid to sleep the majority of the flight. Pregnancy = an increased risk for blood clots, especially in the air. Instead of sleeping and staying in my seat, I have been instructed to get up and walk every hour. EVERY HOUR! I realize I'm being a little bit dramatic, but we leave our house at 4:00am on Thursday and arrive in Dublin at 5:25am on Friday. There are three flights in between with no lengthy layovers for naps. I am going to be tired and grumpy with not sleeping for more than an hour at a time. I'm thinking I will need to set a timer on my iPod or something so that I actually get up walk every hour. Here's hoping our Dublin hotel has a room available for early check in so that we can at least get a little TWO hour nap in on Friday :)

3) Essentials. I am now using special products for almost every aspect of my daily hygiene and vanity routine. This includes special face wash, lotions, shampoo, conditioner, detergent, etc. that are fragrance free and, as much as possible, free of other yucky chemicals. Normally when I travel, I only bring items I can't buy and toss there, or if I do pack all of my essentials and forget something that is important, I can just buy it there. This may not be true in Ireland. I'm sure they sell most things we have here, but what if they don't? And if they do, will it be ridiculously expensive? The exchange rate is not in our favor at the moment. Accordingly, I am making lists so that I can check off everything so that I don't have to worry about it.

Now, I will stop whining. I cannot wait for our last big vacation as a couple. I am pretty sure I will tell our child later that they have been to Ireland, though ;) I'll post photos and some trip highlights when we get back!

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Gender Wars

To know, or not to know the baby's gender. That is the big question.

From long before the time I was pregnant, I have been convinced that I do not want to find out what we're having before the baby is born. There are so few surprises anymore- this seems like a great one. Go nine months wondering and guessing, knowing that no matter what, we will find out. Also, this could be a money saving idea. This reason was brought to my attention once I knew I was pregnant. If I know what we are having, then I will have the impulse to buy every cute pink/blue thing I saw, many of which I would never need and I'd be throwing money away. Plus, neutral items can be used again if our second child happens to not be the same sex as the first. I also don't want to end up with a ton of cute clothes in blue/pink that we won't even get to by the time our child outgrows them because everyone was so excited to buy cute clothes. I have heard that people buy more practical gifts when the sex is unknown because it's less fun to buy neutral clothes. At this point, I think I prefer practical and essential over cute and gender themed. This is very logical and responsible reasoning, if you ask me. I even convinced Jay. We were leaving Babies R' Us the day after finding out that we were going to be parents. He assumed we'd find out and seemed somewhat surprised that I was so dead set against it. I told him my reasoning and managed to bring him over to my side.

However, perhaps it's my hormones that are messing with my judgment, I am rethinking my stance. This morning, while half sleeping between Thomas' dives off the bed and then his whining to be let back on the bed, I had some sort of half dream or thought about finding out. Following this, I keep weighing the idea back and forth in my head. It seems silly that this little thought is invading what seemed to be a pretty solid plan that I have been committed to. I really don't care about the decorating/clothes issue. I have no problem with neutral colors, and think we will stick to a lot of neutral themes either way (again- I am all about the idea of reusing). What is swaying me somewhat is the idea that perhaps bonding with my baby will be a different experience if early on I am bonding with my 'baby boy' or 'baby girl' instead of 'it.' It seems as though I might have a greater sense of 'knowing' the baby when it is born if I already know that it is a girl/boy. Since I do not have any prior experience in this realm and cannot compare one experience to the other, I am feeling slightly stuck. Also, I know couples who have found out early and others who didn't, and all clearly love their children and bonded with them regardless of the point at which they figured out when their baby was 'he' or 'she.'

Maybe the only reason I am feeling like I want to find out is that, possibly at the next ultrasound, I can. Or maybe it is something else? And no, we will not be raising our child as 'it' like those crazy parents on the news right now!

Friday, June 3, 2011

Breaking the News

Since the day I found out I was pregnant, a weight sitting steadily upon my shoulders has been the reality that, at some point, I would have to tell my boss. Now, I don't want to imply that my boss wouldn't be happy for me, or would be angry, but the reality is, I work in an office in which all of the attorneys with children are male, and the last (and only) woman in the office to take maternity leave was pregnant approximately twelve years ago. Needless to say, I have been extremely nervous and concerned about what kind of reaction I would receive. Following our 12 week appointment, I decided that I needed to tell my boss this week, before I start showing and the women in the office figure it out, and before we go to Ireland, because I didn't want to seem deceptive.

Yesterday, I couldn't take it anymore. I decided "today's the day" and spent the day waiting for the perfect opportunity to break the news (as if there could be a perfect opportunity). I went in to my boss's office to help him with something else, and thought, "Okay, now! Do it!," but he was grumpy and rather short so I chickened out. A few hours later, I finally sucked it up, and went to talk to him. I closed his door as I told him I wanted to talk to him about something and he said, "Well, that sure is a big smile on your face!" That made it easier to tell him and I was pleasantly shocked by his reaction. He was absolutely thrilled and happy with the news-I'm not sure I've ever seen him smile that big! It was such a HUGE relief to have told him, especially given that he is so happy for us, and supportive.

Now, I have also told most of the other people in my office and everyone is so excited and thoughtful. One of the partners just took me out to lunch to celebrate and I have been getting lots of advice already from the many moms here. Our child will have many aunts from my office. I even already have offers to babysit. I hope those offers are still good in a year!

Whew! I get more and more excited the more people I tell. It's fun to have other people joining in the joy that Jay and I have been experiencing for the last two months.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Times, they are a changin'

Having just passed the 12 week milestone of my pregnancy and entering my second trimester, it has hit me that our child will be here in six months!

Yesterday, we had our second ultrasound and I cannot believe how much our little baby (it is now about the size of a peach) has changed in the six weeks since our first ultrasound. At that appointment, it literally looked like nothing more than just a bean. It was a little thing with a beating heart. Now, it looks just like what it is- a baby! It has tiny little arms and legs, feet, ten fingers, and a big head. I was shocked to see how developed it was. The ultrasound showed its brain and spine and its little bones. The baby was going crazy during the ultrasound, bouncing and wiggling all over the place. At one point, it even looked like it was waving to us.

I have been such a worrier ever since I found out I was pregnant. I have been so scared that if I get too excited, start planning too early and getting things ready, or tell too many people too soon, I will jinx it and something will go wrong. Up until yesterday, I was convinced that something was wrong. I haven't had morning sickness, only afternoon sour stomach (as I refer to it), and while I do feel chubby and have the lovely acne of a teenage boy, I haven't felt that 'pregnant.' It was reassuring to see that little baby bouncing around on the screen, with all as it should be at this stage and growth even a little ahead of schedule. Seeing that I am, in fact, pregnant, and the baby is as it should be at this stage lightened a lot of my concerns. So far  all is well (knock on wood).

These are pictures I took of the ultrasound print outs, so the quality isn't great and I can't figure out how to rotate them, but you get the idea.